‘Knotted’ 2021

I honestly thought the pandemic was the most intense thing that would happen to me in these few years.

I believed that once we were out the other side of it, that things would feel ok again.

I was so naïve.

I was so young in my thinking.

Wizened now.

Different now.

Changed.  I am not who I was, not that girl that thought there was a plan, who believed things just happen.

Now I know.  The plan is flawed and tests us, with things that feel too heavy to carry.

Knotted and broken.

The diagnosis of early 2021 meant things happening within me that I could not control.

A loss of something.

And left a knot inside me. It left me carrying such a heavy grief.